Depression!
I have depression! Not surprising you might think, considering what I have to put up with, but it’s the most miserable part of getting well again, that no one talks about!
I get depression about once a month and feel very low. The Dr’s have upped my anti-depressants, but I still get low and moan at everyone, including the nurses, the therapists, the carers and my long suffering husband!
The thing about depression is you have no control over it. Everything seems black and suicide seems the easy way out! You think you can stand no more and can’t go on. Even though you know it’s a chemical imbalance, you can’t pull yourself together. You try your hardest and use all your positive thinking strategies, but nothing seems to work!
I have concluded that when I am in the middle of a black mood |I will just have to ride it, as I have tried everything else to cheer myself up!