Intensive care (day 6)
It’s taken a long time for me to see her this morning, there is someone who had a heart attack in the next bed. They hope to take the tube out that they re-inserted last night soon. Her liver function has improved by 3000, the last 2 days it had been over 7k
I am getting almost 6 hours sleep a night but I seem to be more and more exhausted as time goes on. The stronger you try to handle everything the harder it seems to get. I am worried the the last 2+ years are taking their toll, not just what is happening now. My cold feels like it’s getting worse.
She is awake enough to hear what is said and she can squeeze my hand once for yes. I can tell that she is hurting mentally, not physically, from the squeeze and the occasional tears. The delimma I have is what to say to her, apart from the obvious. Both parties can get very frustrated with communication so I know I shouldn’t try to much. We need to let nature take it’s course.
She keeps trying to talk, I can’t make out what it is, maybe she pleading. This is horrible.