Losing the physical self

For some reason I have found it more upsetting seeing her recently. Maybe because it’s Valentine day and it brings back all the memories. She is drugged to drowsy, sweating profusely from her kidney infection, drooling and still has pain. I am very impressed and emotional that she has made me two valentine’s cards, one of them is from the cat. Neither of us can cry anymore so we don’t embarrass ourselves. The other day she made some scones and she was swimming yesterday. When slightly down I dread getting depressed, because I feel it could all fall apart so easily. The mystery of life so far has told me that we are all sailing more closely to the wind, mentally, than we think we are. It’s a good job I am an eternal optimist!

Anita tells me

We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.

Oscar Wilde

Today I feel flat but there is usually a tomorrow.

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